Wednesday, 1 April 2009


Ok so my work has always been stressful, but on top on of that my mum has been diagnosed with uteren cancer and the court case for Rohan is this monday,
this week i just feel like screeming mum's op is tomorrow and i am spending the night there tomorrow night so that she has someone there. on top of everything i triped over a toy car and dislocated my ankel. i really didnt want to come to work because i had to confront some one. but i did and i have confronted her and some hoe it turned out to be all my fault as useual!
i just wonder want i have dont i know i am the "newbe" and i dont want to step on anyones toes so i did the right thing about it and i aboligised to her but still.

Rohan's court case is this monday, and i really think that it is going to go in our favor so i hope it does because his mother is still homeless and still the same rubbing everything in to our faces! i really hate her and i know that it is a waste of my energy but what else can i do????
i have tried everything to make "friends" with her and i still play nice and say hello but it makes my skin crawl like if i look down it would be dripping on to the floor when i do, and i just want her to give us Rohan and drop off the face of the earth!!!

Rohan and Mick are the most imported people in my life i know that i cannot live with out them! i just want her to leave go away go back to the rock that she crawled out from under!

i am so close to the edge!!! I just want to hall of and smack her! but i wont!!
i know that my eds is going to play apart in the court case and that they are going to use it against us i know that but eds hasnt happered me in anyway of raising Rohan and it ever will!!!

Tuesday, 17 March 2009

my teeth

greeeeeeaaaaat so 3 years of braces was for nothing!!!! i went to the dentist about a week ago because i cracked my wisdom tooth and they said that it had start to go rotten to they were going to remove it so i went and had xrays and everything and got it removed on monday of this week and in the xrays it shows that the rest of my wisdom teeth and the bottom ones are facing in towards the rest of my so i have to go in for an operation to get them removed before they deside to come tho the gums!! wonderful aye??

Wednesday, 11 March 2009

just another update

well life still stressful!! the fight to get rohan away from his mother, the fact that its his 3rd birthday, and i am getting one of my wisdom teeth pulled and the fact that the rest of them arent through and they want to remove them through and operation! my wedding is only 18 months away and we havent really started planning, i need to get a assistent if i could afford one!!!
everyone is coming to Rohan's party this weekend and thats so cool but its the first time my posh Grandma is going to meet my crazy in-laws and i am going to catch the brunt of it! my Father in-law Joe is the sweetest person youll ever meet but he also cusses like a salor and dress like he just excaped from the army blue wife beaters and steel caps do not much impress dear old grandma!

Wednesday, 18 February 2009

Rohan Update

As you know we have taken Rohan away from is mother, we let him have a visit with her yesterday so i stayed back at work so that i wouldnt be around while thay we're visiting first thing that rohan did when she went to hug him was bit her on the shoulder! Ha ha! he also slaped her in the fast and just blatedly ignored she is no mum!!

everyone who knows Rohan through Sharon shes that he is so much happier with us it says so much doesnt it...i am so glad that we have done this just for Rohan's sake! his safety was at risk!!! that is what made us do it

Tuesday, 10 February 2009

no title just read

I wish i had taken the chance i had last year with sharon! she just irritates me so much!!!!! i wish she could see what she was doin to my beautiful little boy!! i hope she realises before its too late but you know what i dont think she will!!

the sad thing is is that i dont want to take rohan away from her....i am going to have to! Michael and i have an appoint with his lawyer on friday and i know what i have to do! i can beleive that it has come to this! i didnt think she could be this bad! but she is all i want to do is just sit and cry for my little boy! i cannot beleive this i really can but thing has come to light that i know are true and i just didnt want to see it what a fool i am i really am i feel so stupid that i had not seen this before before i was told how could i have been so nieve?? i know i am a good mum i know that but i just thought sharon would have SOME brains but obvously not!

Monday, 9 February 2009

this sucks

I am back in my wheel chair again! last night i had a bit of an accident, i triped over and now i am back in my wheel chair to protect my left hip. i still have to go to work and micks not here till 12.30 so i am stuck on the couch i cant even go out for a cigarette i have so much house work to do and i cant do it. this is so bad i have to do something, i am just sitting here i need something to do i have check my emails and my facebook and now im on here winging to everyone but i am just so stuck i dont know what to do, i dont want to just sit here. so much to do and i cant do it this is sooooo bad!

Tuesday, 3 February 2009

my stupid ankle

looks like it will be another operation coming up!

my stupid ankle has dislocated 2 in the last week putting me on crutches!! which us EDSers would no isnt good for you arms! so my shoulders are hurting my left leg is killing me and i am still at work, why? i dont know. i mean it is a pretty cruisy job but still you need to be in your right mind.
i knew that i would have to have more operations on my knees to replace my knee caps next year but i didnt want more than that now that i know that mick and i can have children we were planning to have a baby after we got married next year! this suck monkey butts man!!!!